It seems I always get all worked up over something Korie is, or is not, doing. I am a self-professed worry wort. I can remember after we brought her home from the hospital I was worried she was sleeping too much, then she wasn’t sleeping enough. I even fretted over her not crying as much as I thought she should. Seriously! Instead of having a thankful heart for a laid back and as perfect as you can get baby, I worried. It was sucking the joy right out of me. I remember when I was a kid and would worry, my mama would tell me worrying meant I was not trusting in God to take care of the situation. I am thankful now that The Lord has been convicting my heart, and showing me how to turn from worry and totally trust in Him. It’s not always easy though, in fact it has been down right hard these past few days. Korie has been doing this weird thing with her eyes, she kind of scrumples up her face and squints. It only lasts a moment but has been happening much more frequently. I called the SB clinic in Boston today and was reassured that if Korie is otherwise acting fine, then we should be okay to watch and wait. Her follow-up MRI and appointment in Boston, with Dr. Warf, is two weeks from today. I also called her ophthalmologist and I am hoping he will get her in tomorrow. He should be able to dilate her eyes and tell if there is pressure on her optic nerve, which is a marker for increased intracranial pressure. I also noticed tonight her pupils aren’t equal.
I am looking to God’s Word to help me. I keep thinking of what Paul says in Philippians, “do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” When I stop and pray every time I feel worried or anxious, I can feel the peace of God overwhelm me. I know He has a plan for Korie, even if I can’t see it.
I am asking for prayers for Korie. Please pray that whatever is causing her to have these wonky eye issues will completely be resolved. And please pray for me, that The Lord will continue to show me how to best take care of her. I keep thinking, if we can just get her back to Boston! But in reality -whether she is in LR or Boston- it is The Lord who is her physician and can heal her. Please lift her up to Him.